Holy Spirit

This song has a story, a story of its birth.

Back in August 1994 I had just finished attending a 6 weeks Saints Alive course run through the church, during this course I learnt about the bible and I was able to take part by reading from notes and through poetic prayer written.

One day we all went into the Church to receive the Holy Spirit, we all sat in the Church talking quietly to each other ( I felt I wanted to sit over the other side of the Church and not talk, but I remained where I was because I did not want others to think I was being anti-sociable, especially as I was quiet anyway.
After going up to the Altar ( table) I felt dumb, yet I wanted to sing and shout for joy but I felt I could not show my feelings in public, it did not feel right, I was not ready.
The Spirit is willing yet the flesh is weak, (very true).

A few days later our family went on holiday to Brittany in France, I prayed all night, not because I was frightened, far from, but because I felt a peace, I prayed for everyone on the ferry, I felt very peaceful.
I took my bible on this holiday (this is the first holiday I have ever taken my bible) I was into reading Psalm 139.
We arrived at the Gite, my husband had a headache through driving.
That evening everyone went to bed and I stayed up to unpack our things singing quietly to myself, I did not feel tired but happy.

The next day we all took a walk down to the beach at the bottom of the hill it was a pebbly beach. A dog took one of my sons black socks and carried it off, he was left with one black sock. Near lunch time I walked back up the hill to the Gite to cook our meal when I started to sing this song in double-dutch, whilst I was singing it I thought to myself, I have not heard this tune before and I carried on singing it.
I think I prayed but I do remember asking God for some English words so I could understand what I was singing, then these words came and I quickly found pen and paper and started to write them down, I could not write music out so I used this way to remember the tune up down long note etc. (/ \ – ~)

The next day I still had the song but I could not remember how the tune went, it was gone, I felt sad about this.
When our holiday came to an end we had to go back home via Dieppe instead of Cherbourg , we were not familiar with Dieppe and ended up taking a wrong turning, and everyone was getting upset with each other because we did not want to miss the ferry home.
I closed my eyes and prayed that we would get there on time. We arrived with ten minutes to spare. After thanking God for keeping us calm and arriving on time we boarded the ferry to New Haven where we continued our journey home.
The children went to sleep and during the rest of our journey home I started to sing Holy Spirit the tune came back to me, I sang it quietly to myself all the way home.
As soon as we arrived home I put it onto tape before I forgot the tune again, I can now relax, I was so happy that I had remembered the tune.

I believe God has been working on this song/hymn all these years, I play it by ear on my organ at home and my music teacher of years ago written out the chords for me, I now use it to help others along with other songs and poems, also on my Cursillo it was played in a full Church during Clausura.
Now at last I feel it is back in its rightful place St Martin in the fields.

Six years later my daughter has composed a harmony with her electric Violin to it and it sounds so devotional (tears of joy) and the music group are also sharing in this Gods song/hymn.
God has never let me forget this I believe because it was not finished/ready.
I believe after reflecting on this and going over it again and again this song/hymn was conceived through St Martin in the fields (Saints Alive Course) and gave birth in France, for this reason I do not call it my song/hymn, I call it Gods song/hymn because of the way it became so, the wonderful way it was born.

This song/hymn may not have flourished along with poems and other songs if it was not for a friend of mine Joan asking me what I was doing with my songs/poems and I said nothing, I was told (off) not to waste a gift like this so I now boast for God our Father, He uses them in many ways.

All things come from You and of Your own do we give You with LOVE, amen.